Showing posts with label remembrance of God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label remembrance of God. Show all posts

Thursday, 26 November 2015

Thoughts: our spiritual money

Hari Om.

I was recently reflecting on the subject of thoughts. They are so subtle, one can't see them or touch them....most of us struggle to control them. Yet they are the very basis of our experience of life, our speech and our actions.....and therefore, our happiness, sadness, success, failure, everything really!

Strange how we don't learn how to manage our thoughts when we are in school. The only time mainstream society seems to bother about helping people to learn to think properly is in cases of patients with serious mental health issues such as depression, anger management problems, obsessive-compulsive disorders etc. Such patients are offered various types of therapies to help change their thought processes which are harming them and others- one such therapy that is quite successful is "Cognitive Behavioural Therapy".

But what about the rest of us who may not have such serious mental health diagnoses, but also suffer the same problems to an extent e.g. sadness/anger/fear etc are all emotions that trouble us from time to time in life. I personally think all people should be taught how to manage their thoughts in a healthy way- eg how to deal with angry thoughts in a healthy way (should I punch a wall, punch someone or maybe listen to some music and calm down? Lots of people have no clue how to handle powerful emotions. Even if we know what to do with our anger, it can be so difficult to practice. (My husband will vouch for this....after we've had a shouting match.... fortunately not that common but this does happen, I'm ashamed to say).

So it's crazy! We live in a world of perpetual thought- our thoughts and other people's thoughts (we are exposed to others' thoughts via their speech/actions).  But we barely know how to control them.

As sadhakas, we sit for half an hour to concentrate- we mostly wrestle with our minds during this time, and at the end often think, phew that's over for now, that was hard work. Of course at other times, it may be more easy/pleasant to concentrate, but on the whole, it is no easy task.

And yet, the Gurus say, from the spiritual perspective, if one wants spiritual success, then thought is spiritual money, thought is the Way to the Goal, to God. Thought is a very valuable resource, the golden key to Moksha/Nirvana.

We've all probably heard sayings such as "time is money", "Penny wise, Pound foolish" (meaning being careful about saving the small change/pennies, but being careless with the bigger currency/pounds)....the Indian equivalent would of course be "Paisa wise, Rupee foolish".

In the spiritual world, thought is spiritual money. (Yes in spiritual life, time is money, but thought is even bigger money). You get spiritual success by thinking of God. Oh how easy it sounds, but how difficult it is. Just think of it and you get it! But there is a caveat. You have to think of it, *all the time*. Not so easy now. You have to think of God all the time to get Him.

So if thoughts are spiritual money, how are we spending ours? The more spiritual money we spend on God, i.e. the more we think of God,  the closer we draw to Him/Her and the higher our chance of attaining God in this lifetime.

Penny wise, pound foolish is a wise proverb that can be applied to spiritual life. If one spends half an hour in a day thinking of God, and 23.5 hours thinking of other things, then that is being spiritually 'penny wise pound foolish'. One is simply throwing away one's spiritual money, one's valuable thoughts. 

Ideally one should spend the greater part of the day thinking of God (saving the spiritual pounds), not simply spending a little time thinking of God (saving a few spiritual pennies).

So our thoughts that glide and slide this way, our thoughts that meander here and there often with little rhyme or reason, these thoughts are everything in spiritual life. They are the key to our success.

We have to get some control of them. We can't just let them go all over the place like a crazed drunken elephant.

The Gurus offer some words of caution here in mind management. They say the mind is like an elephant.....it has to sway from side to side as it walks. So let it sway...but a little, not wildly. If you try and control the mind-elephant too strictly, it will get angry and turn against you. If you leave it to its own devices,  it will go wild and play havoc with you.

Therefore we have to be wise mahouts of our mind-elephants....gently tapping it from time to time with the stick of the name of God and various spiritual practices to keep it going on the spiritual path. In this task, we are best of asking God Himself for help with controlling this difficult thing that He made. It is no easy task.

So if thought is spiritual money, I should be pretty careful how I plan my day to avoid thinking about rubbish and make sure I think about Him. I need to be picky about what I read, who I hang out with, where I go, what movies I watch....how boring this sounds, but it is exactly the advice our spiritual masters give us. They say, be picky, be choosy. Don't just let the mind-elephant go wild.

For example, this year I have been reading and following the news more avidly than previously. What has been the result? More mental agitation and stress and revulsion at the horrific things that people do. It does not help that journalists rarely report any of the good things that people do.

So after reading some of the recent world events,  my mind at one point was jumping about, saying Oh my God, how can people kill each other in the name of God....what madness! After a while, it calmed down. I began to think, the world has not been a nice place really, say for the last 1000 years of history at least. But this has not stopped many people from achieving their spiritual goals in life.

For example, Meera practiced her sadhana in the midst of an invasion of her land by people who disliked her religion, it did not stop her attaining Hari. Swami Sivananda was born in India when it was under foreign rule and he lived during the second world war- this did not stop him meditating on and attaining God. In fact, after attaining God, he was a great help to the rest of humanity in spreading the message of peace rendered powerful by his own direct experience of God.

Similarly all the spiritual masters of recent times, Ramakrishna, Ananadamayi Ma etc lived in times when the political situation in their country was very bad, where irreligion and adharma was the norm in politics. None of the disturbing world events around them could entice them into thinking too much about this. No, they thought obsessively only about one thing, i.e. God. They were very stingy with their spiritual money, with their thoughts, directing these only to God. We need to save our spiritual money like them, be stingy with our thoughts like them. We need to be able to say...I'm not going to waste my thoughts on that not-so-nice person, those bad events, whatever....I'm going to spend my thoughts wisely to get what I want, what I came here for....i.e. God.

I was therefore telling myself, ok there's war, killing and madness all over the world, so what's new? It was worse in the time of Meera, Ramakrishna and Sivananda- they lived in a land subjugated by foreign rulers. At least I have always lived in countries where I am relatively free to think and live as I want.

Why then should I spend my thoughts, my spiritual money, on horrible world events and even a possible third world war. It would be more useful for me, and possibly for the world, if I direct my thoughts to God and send out some peaceful thoughts- instead of more agitated thoughts.

So I've decided to save my spiritual money, my thoughts, a bit better from now on. In the time of Meera, I'm sure she did not spend too much time wondering about the terrible foreign invasions of her land...she wisely spent her time thinking about Hari. I think I'd best do the same. Let the messy world affairs be taken care of by that Hari who knows how to handle these.....I'll just mind my own business which is to think more of Hari...after all, that's the reason for my taking birth here.

Hari Aum Tat Sat.

Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Two worlds

Hari Om.

Was just reflecting on my day today- the feeling of living in two worlds. I get up in the morning, do a short session of japa (about 20 minutes), then start the usual stuff- breakfast, getting ready and driving to work. I keep a tiny 'altar' consisting of a minute Ganesh and a postcard size picture of my Guru and Krishna on my desk (in a hidden position where my patients can't see it) in my clinic room. In between patients, I repeat my mantra 1-5 times and make a note of this (to encourage me to keep up the habit). On finishing work, I drive back home, eat, bathe and after some chores, do some more japa. Additional stuff comes up from time to time, but that's my basic weekday routine.

I was just thinking I really do feel I live in two worlds. At home, I read the works of Gurus and feel I can more easily live in their thought world..."God is everywhere they say..."Look....a pot exists, a potter must therefore exist. Similarly the world exists- intricate and extraordinary- therefore an extraordinary Creator must exist- get to know Him/Her/That". So the Gurus say. And my heart says- Yes, I feel it....the world is amazing, the Creator must be amazing....I want to know, to experience this. These words of the Gurus from their books make me repeat my mantra with renewed enthusiasm.

But when I enter the outside world, I feel like a fish out of water. Taking the name of God here is an odd behaviour....thinking or talking of God in the outside 'mainstream' majority world is seen as an odd thing, so one has to keep quiet. No talk of God during my worldly day of seeing patients, doing chores etc. "How are you doing? Nice weather today- glad it's not too hot/raining!" Such is the mundane conversation that occurs outdoors.

The contrast between the materialistic and spiritual viewpoints is crazy and extreme. One side says it "the sun", the other says no it is "Surya dev"! One side says the rain is only an automatic process, the other says no it is a deliberate act of God! In this way, the materialists and spirtualists disagree on all worldly things that we experience daily.

The Gurus says the great light in the sky is not "the sun" but a living being full of Grace, a manifestation of the Supreme Light of God- "Surya dev" or "Surya Narayana".  In the Gita, Krishna says Surya is His manifestation. My heart says yes to these ideas/thoughts...I can accept them...Surya obviously nourishes the world, is life-sustaining- giving and sustaining life is a quality of God. (Surya can also take life away, this is also a quality of God).
But from childhood, I was taught to think of the sun as just a hot ball of matter, in which a complex nuclear reaction takes place- and taught to speak of this alone as "the sun"- an impersonal, lifeless, ball of matter.
Then when I discovered my Guru Sivananda, and learned that this is a manifestation of God, I feel like mentally bowing to this great light in the sky, and see it as "Suryadev" or "Narayana". It is not a dead ball of matter for me, it is a living being, the Grace of God working constantly to keep all life on earth alive.
But in day to day conversation, this divine light in the sky, has to be referred to as "the sun" not as "God" or Narayana. People would be worried if I said "God is shining bright in the sky today".

The sad thing is even many spiritual people would think it pretentious to speak of the sun as Surya, and materialists would just think one was mad. So with both groups mostly, one has to keep one's thoughts hidden, private, and speak in a way that is suitably materialistic and not related to God.
In the mainstream world, basically most of the time, I feel I have to hide my thoughts and speak as though there is no God at all, and that it is all lifeless matter.

The sun/Surya issue is just one example. There are so many things in the world that are extraordinary, exquisite, beautiful and worthy of admiration. But expressing awe and wonder at this, especially with reference to God, is not something that most people do or like to hear....mostly people just get on with one mechanical action after another.

So it is difficult for a spiritual aspirant like me trying to think constantly on God because of living in two worlds. The world of the materialists (the majority)who believe there is nothing but what the senses perceive- to them it is all lifeless matter. And the world of the spiritualists, the Gurus, who believe, everything, absolutely everything is God. (Sivananda used to prostrate mentally, sometimes physically, to the rivers, mountains, his toilet, animals everything- seeing God alone in these). There is no "sun" to them, only Krishna/Shiva/Durga/Brahman. There is no dead matter, all is living spirit. But there are very few such spiritual people today to hang out with.

I find it hard work to have to keep moving between these two worlds. I find it a struggle trying to maintain an inner spiritual outlook/viewpoint, while externally appearing to agree with the materialistic viewpoint and concealing my inner world (to avoid seeming pretentious/mad).

Sometimes I wish I lived in a world of Rishis....where everyone was either a spiritual teacher Rishi/Guru, or a spiritual student like me. In such a world, one would always talk of SuryaNarayana not of "the sun". When it rains, one would say "Krishna/God is sending quite a bit of rain down today!" (In the Gita, Krishna says He sends forth and holds back rain- an example showing that God runs the whole Universe).....instead of the usual "Oh it's raining again.....must be a weather front" (lifeless matter viewpoint). But there must be a good reason why God has sent me here...no doubt this is the right place to be (though it is hard work).

It is tiring to mentally try to maintain a different viewpoint from the mainstream. It is exhausting to keep reminding oneself, against the mainstream view, that no all is not dead matter- all is living Spirit. I feel the mantra helps....but even repeating the mantra in the outside world has to be a top secret....a secret from one's friends, one's family, one's boss, the shop assistant etc etc....because very few practice this and they would think one was bonkers (which would make dealing with them difficult!)....so spiritual life is led in secret. It is not easy at all.

Anyway, enough talking. Am off to do some japa. Am home now after work, and Surya Narayana is sending gentle evening rays that touch my arm. It is a good feeling. :) Imagine rays of light leaving Surya and touching us here on Earth (Doh....not Earth! It's Mother Earth according to the yogis...the "Earth" is of course "Bhu devi" the Earth goddess). Wish my mind had been trained from childhood to call all things by their proper Sanskrit Divine names at least mentally. Anyway, better late than never (i.e. retraining the mind to think right).

Hari Aum Tat Sat.

Wednesday, 30 April 2014

Purascharana Two amendment


Due to a combination of recent ill health (fortunately now better), exam stress (four weeks away!) and the stress of working full-time, I have been forced to slow down the pace of my second purascharana. I am now doing seven malas a day i.e. 35 minutes japa a day. I will intensify it again in a few months God-willing once things calm down.

I am currently doing a wonderful e-course called Practicing the Presence of God which examines the lives of three Christian mystics to learn from them. The course just involves receiving some emails and reflecting on them and then putting the teachings into practice in daily life. The three mystics are Brother Lawrence, St Thérèse of Liseux and Jean Pierre de Caussade. The course is mentored by Father Thomas Keating, a Trappist monk in his 90s and a wonderful spiritual teacher. He emphasises the importance of converting ordinary life into sadhana. To remember that God is with us in our most mundane and boring moments- writing an email, washing the dishes, texting a friend, talking on the telephone. He reminds us that we need not wait for some miraculous experience to feel God's presence. Life itself is a miracle. We are just so used to experiencing this miracle that we don't realise it is one. 

I find Brother Lawrence's technique suits me the best. He used to have a chat with God. I am rather introverted and quiet in a crowd (though can be chatty on one-to-one basis) and naturally find this appeals to me. The senior Swamiji in the Sivananda Ashram in Rishikesh also told me that talking to God can also be considered a meditation. It was he who first told me about the interesting story of Brother Lawrence.

 Despite the slow down in my purascharana, I find some consolation in the fact that I do continue my conversation with the Divine. It sometimes annoys me that it feels like a monologue- I occasionally feel irate that God doesn't talk back to me. At other times I don't worry because I know that God is continuously talking to me through others, through life events, and that even my own thoughts and words ultimately have their source in Him. 

Sometimes, I do wish He would just appear in a straightforward way in a human form though (with flute and all) so I could speak with Him like Arjuna and others did. This universal form is wonderful, but I also wish I could see Vishnu in His four armed form and also as Krishna. I would also love to have darshan of Durga. It seems like an outrageous impossible wish to dare to aspire for a Darshan of God but great sages assure us that this is possible.

See this inspiring article by Gurudev Sivananda assuring us that Darshan is quite attainable:

http://sivanandaonline.org/public_html/?cmd=displaysection&section_id=1083

Am off to do a bit of japa and study now. Have study leave today- am thoroughly fed up of exam revision. Can't wait to be done with the exam and return to a calmer life of japa and sanity.

Hari Aum Tat Sat



On a random note: this Sufi music on Rumi's poetry by Gurumaa is just so beautiful (actually the whole album called Zikr, meaning God remembrance, is wonderful)

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4I60ZHdx5Og




Thursday, 13 February 2014

The Way of A Pilgrim

I recently bought the book "A Way of a Pilgrim" ( and it's sequel "A Pilgrim continues his Way"). What a wonderful book it is. It is an autobiography of an anonymous 33 year old Russian man who learns the art of  continuous remembrance of God.

He does this by continuously repeating in his heart, the Jesus prayer "Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me". He learns how to do this from his spiritual master ("Starets") of the Greek/Eastern Orthodox church. He is asked to use a rosary initially, and advised later to repeat the prayer with every breath. With time, he discovers that the prayer repeats itself effortlessly in his heart, and he experiences the bliss of the Presence of God.

He gains inspiration in his prayer and meditation from The Philokalia, a sublime book of spiritual teachings given by Saints of the Eastern Orthodox church. These spiritual masters lived ascetic lives on Mount Athos in ancient Greece, and the teachings were compiled into a book in the 8th century. He learns the secret of "interior prayer" or direct experience of Christ/God through the guidence of his Teacher and the book.

The book is inspiring because it shows how an ordinary man transforms himself from a simple seeker into a man who experiences spiritual truth for himself. He says practice of prayer is most important- reading is good if it inspires practice.

I am still halfway through reading this book and am so glad to have discovered it. It is an inspiration for anyone wishing to learn the art of ceaseless remembrance of God.

Salutations to the great Spiritual Masters of the Eastern Orthodox Church.

I am struck by how similar their teachings are to those of all other mystical traditions. It goes to show that Truth is One. And that it cannot be bound down or constrained by any number of "isms" or "religions" or dogmas. Not by Hinduism, Buddhism, Sufism, Christianity, Judaism, Islam or Zoroastrianism. All the "isms" contain Truth in them, and the heart of the Teachings is clearly the same.

Prostrations to all the great Spiritual Teachers of all traditions who have always taught humanity the same thing- to love each other and love God. It is humans who have confused themselves with dogmas and ended up fighting in the name of religion. It is good to see that increasingly the 'different' religions are beginning to respect each other.

Hope we can all discover the secrets of "interior prayer" as the Pilgrim did. 

Hari Om Tat Sat

Saturday, 17 August 2013

Constant remembrance of God

The sages say that one has to attain constant remembrance of God in order to be able to attain Him. This is not at all easy, whether or not one lives one's home-Ashram or a formal Ashram.

I have been considering how to make my mind pause in the midst of 'worldly' activities (working, cooking, cleaning, shopping, driving etc) and think of God. I am doing one hour of sitting-down japa a day, but the remainder of the time, I am busy with other things and I forget God for many hours at a time.

Swami Chidananda Saraswati (disciple of Swami Sivananda) has written a beautiful and inspiring article on constant remembrance of God.

http://www.energyenhancement.org/sivananda/Sri-Swami-Sivananda-The-Path-Beyond-Sorrow-Chapter-9-Yoga-In-The-Home-7-Dynamic-Spirituality-Remembering-God.html

He basically says that if you are immersed in worldly activities for most of the day, at least pause every hour for 2-3 minutes and contemplate God and repeat His Name. In this way he says the transformation that takes place within one is no less than a contemplative monk. Most inspiring.

Excerpt from Swami Chidananda's superb article:

"During your lunch hour, try to snatch fifteen minutes for silent interior prayer and inward meditation. Get away by yourself, and if conditions are such that you cannot do so, then try to get behind a newspaper in a corner somewhere, and while pretending to read the paper, contemplate upon God for those moments. Or pretend to take a nap, close your eyes and go into prayerfulness—but do not actually take a nap! Forget the world, forget life, work, body, everything, for that time, being wholly intent upon God. This is a dynamic process. If you dip into your innermost being now and then, say twenty times a day, or once in every half an hour, for just one minute, that is enough. It is a great life-transforming process. It is dynamic spirituality and the transformation that will come upon you will in no wise be less than the spiritual transformation in a contemplative monk, for you are doing a task which is even greater than his, for he has all the proper facilities and, therefore, it is natural and easy for him to go into God. But with everything against you—when the whole atmosphere, your whole environment, all the factors that go to make up your life are totally material, externalized, and grossly secular—if, in the midst of all that, you have this thought of interiorness once in a while, then the token of your love for God is so earnest, so deeply genuine, that the return for it is tenfold, one hundredfold. Therefore, try to have little minutes of deep and intent God-thought periodically during the course of your busy day. Somehow or the other, connect everything with God. Whatever you do, do it for His love, and try to speak to Him in and through your activities."

I am thinking of investing in a watch with an inbuilt alarm, and set it for every 1-2 hours to remind me to pause and practice this dynamic spiritual practice advised by Swami Chidanandaji. 

Om Namo Narayanaya