Hari Aum.
I feel we have been through enough karmas and separation.
I want a full twin soul reunion. I cannot handle this separation any longer. Do you not have any compassion at all?
The social media mirroring is not enough. I need to hear the exact words— “I feel this connection”. And, that is it. I need this validation after everything that has occurred.
The scientific side of me cannot believe the things that have happened in recent years. But they’ve happened anyway, and they are still happening.
And not just to me, but to others, including doctors, scientists, engineers and rational people who realise they’re also on a twin soul journey.
I have what I call a ‘migraine of separation’ again. I just cannot carry on this way. The pain is too much.
I’m asking you to forgive me for hurting you. I did not genuinely know what this bond was. I had absolutely no idea. I’m still figuring it out.
Please do not inflict this complete separation upon me again. I can’t function like this. I just cannot.
I do not fully understand this journey. But I do know that the separation hurts on all levels—spiritually, mentally, intellectually and physically.
I’m not the sort of person who usually gets low in mood or depressed. But I’m finding this really hard.
I don’t know if you’re here, if you’re reading this. Life is completely surreal.
If you are reading this, then you have to come back, and you have to talk to me— with complete honesty.
I cannot handle these indirect signs, symbols, dreams and the rest anymore. I see these ‘angel numbers’ everywhere, I see your name everywhere. The universe reminds me of you all day every day.
I just cannot take it. I cannot believe I’m saying this but I’m reaching a point where I feel like quitting this planet—as it would have been better not to have been born than to go through the suffering that is this twin soul separation. And I cannot carry on like this any longer.
I want absolute honesty, absolute clarity—the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
In the distant past and the more recent past, you have indirectly shown me that you very much feel this connection. And with the mirror timings online, I feel you know it is a twin soul journey.
I want a direct expression now, I need this for my own sanity. I need to hear the words from you “I feel this connection and I know it is a twin soul bond”.
Can you be humane enough to do this please? There is no excuse of any kind remaining not to. It is a small act that would make a world of difference to me.
Om Namo Narayanaya
Hari Aum Tat Sat
P.S. I do not feel it is necessary or even relevant to discuss the various mundane life events that have occurred in our lives. The intensity of this bond supersedes all of it. I do not need any apology nor any explanation nor anything else.
I only want you to directly tell me in words what you have shown me again and again in your actions in the past year.
My ‘love language’, in case you haven’t noticed (via this blog!), is ***words of affirmation*** (not mirror numbers!!).
I need this more than anything else from you after everything we have both been through on this twin soul journey. If you feel this twin soul love for me, then tell me clearly *in words (spoken or written, preferably both!).*
And, in case you’re doing any lamenting of your own, let me tell you, there is no need. I love you and always will. Our story will have a happy ending in some form in this lifetime (my intuition tells me this)—the Divine will decide the precise details.
P.P.S. I never wanted to leave all those years ago. You gave me the impression that you weren’t available, and I felt I needed sannyas to live a spiritual life.
I feel we pushed each other away—the typical twin soul way. I feel neither of us was to blame in hindsight. It was a part of this journey.
I left in pain, like you left now. The difference is that the bond has intensified to such an extent that makes it impossible to live in separation.
Reunion is the only thing I want today and every day—more than God, I want you. God Him/Herself has made me feel this way. This love itself feels like a manifestation of Him/Her.
P.P.S. I am of the view that twin souls who reunite need to mutually accept/share in the karma that the other has created during their separation. I am prepared to do my part in this regard whatever this may be in accordance with the will of God.
Hari Aum Tat Sat
