Hari Aum.
The subject of twin flame pain is not a happy one obviously but it is a major part of the twin soul experience. I am therefore writing about this here for any twin souls who are going through this.
People say that 'twin souls are a connection'. What does this mean exactly? This is very difficult to explain. The closest explanation I can come up with is the connection one has with one's hand or other limb.
Are we 'connected' to our hands? How would it feel if the hand is 'separated' from the body? What words come to mind? Would we 'miss' our hand? Would we be constantly aware of its absence and want it back? Would we feel ill without it?
What thoughts and feelings would be our experience in such a situation when a limb is severed from our body? The answers to these questions can provide some, but not full, insight into the extent of the pain of twin soul separation.
There is nothing 'normal' about a twin soul bond. It is, in every way, extraordinary. It is a sacred, spiritual bond.
The pain of being separated from or rejected by one's twin soul is therefore appalling and impossible to describe.
Why then, do those of us who seem to be on this journey, seem to get separated? And why is it so hard to reconnect and reunite?
The answer, to a significant extent at least, in one word, is karma. The entire situation is filled with it. Most twin souls experience this. Some twin souls falsely believe they are protecting themselves, each other and everybody else by remaining in this abnormal painful state of twin soul separation.
I do not believe that the Universe or God is sadistic. This connection is created by Him/Her. It is ultimately a loving bond, a hugely loving bond-- an unconditionally loving bond.
People say that God is unconditional love. Well, the twin soul connection, teaches people to experience this. That is simply a reality.
It is not easy, it is not pleasant. Because this journey involves an epic battle between the higher mind/Self and the lower mind/ego self.
The only way one can experience any relief or respite from the twin soul pain is if the lower mind allows the higher mind or Self to take charge. (The lower mind will continue to generate pain and grief if it does not allow the higher Self to express itself).
Twin souls simply have to let go of the six enemies of spiritual life in order to reunite (these are lust, anger, greed, pride, jealousy and delusion). Letting go of anger, jealousy and pride especially are the key in my view. These three are major hurdles in the way of twin soul reunion.
The physical attraction between twin souls is on a scale that cannot be put into words, but this is miles away from the usual manifestation of superficial lust. It is impossible to describe, but suffice to say, it feels like a manifestation of the love they feel for each other-- and therefore, it has a sacred dimension.
I want to say a few words here to my own twin soul:
Like many twin souls, when we met years ago, we were (perhaps due to our individual karma leading us in different directions) unable to recognise this connection for what it truly was. Every twin soul pair has this experience-- an inability to grasp the seriousness of this bond in the initial stages.
This leads to pain which then leads to separation (which turns out to be a failed attempt to escape the pain of rejection or other difficult experience generated by contact with one's twin soul).
After years of separation, the dreams and synchronicities begin, and an awakening to the reality of the connection occurs. The twin soul connection, and also the separation pain, then intensifies to a degree beyond description.
I believe that you know full well that you are on a twin soul journey with me. I feel that you understand at least some, if not all, that I am talking about, and that you have your own unique experience of this connection.
I feel that you too experience this intense pain of twin soul separation along with me. Tell me then, why should this be allowed to continue? (I am not sadistic, and I do not believe that you are either). Why on Earth should we carry on this way? No talking, no communication, no expression of this daily reality....why?
I do not believe that karma (or anything else for that matter) is the answer. There is no justification to continue this separation and the associated pain in my view.
If God places twin souls in karmic connections, then those karmic connections will need to one day (and sooner rather than later) understand the depth of the twin soul bond. The karmic connections are not randomly selected to be partners of twin souls-- they have their own life lessons to enable their spiritual growth (just as all souls do), and part of this includes dealing with the experiences of their twin soul partners. It is their duty to come to terms with this.
As twin souls, we are not meant to live in pain forever. This never-ending pain, I believe, is entirely against the will of God. In fact, the pain is occurring because we are not aligned with the will of God, that God whose nature is unconditional love (which is the precise nature of this twin soul bond).
There is no sense in being angry with me or yourself or anyone else (I hope this is not the case but I feel you are angry-- and this is wholly unnecessary at present in my view).
Nor is there is anything to be gained by pride here. And let us not even talk of jealousy-- it has no place or meaning in this connection. These emotions belong to ordinary human relationships-- and it should be clear that this is not an ordinary relationship in any way, shape or form.
This is a sacred bond. We need to find a way to make this work for everyone.
It is my intuition that our separation, and the associated severe pain, needs to end. I would like you to tell me what you have experienced with regard to this connection-- I feel that I have honestly shared a lot with you here, and I would like you to reciprocate (at least to some extent).
Can you please do us both a favour and reach out at some stage? (I am not reaching out again currently as I feel I am bothering you when you are not ready to talk-- you came across as very reticent when we spoke in January).
As this situation was created by God, I feel that He/She is supporting our connection-- and our external life circumstances (including karmic connections etc) will be influenced by His/Her grace.
I do not feel we have anything to fear-- as the saying goes, 'The one who lives by Dharma is protected by Dharma'. (A daily spiritual practice is vital to ensure the connection with Dharma).
I believe it is time to perform our dharma/duty as twin souls. The first step is to openly acknowledge this connection (at least between ourselves). I believe, very firmly, that God and Guru are with us-- and Their will is ultimately always positive.
I am also of the view that you and I are meant to end up as romantic partners one day in this lifetime or another (the fact that you are here, reading this blog, suggests that you have strong feelings for me—and surely, not only negative ones—do not even try and deny this again. I wish you would be clear about this in words though as this is important to me).
And, regardless of whether or not that happens, I never want us to experience complete separation and the associated pain ever again. I promise you, that I will never initiate a separation phase again as far as possible (God-willing) -- and please do not try to provoke me into one either.
I would also like to meet with you in person to discuss this connection sooner rather than later. I hope you will agree that this is completely reasonable given the nature of this spiritual connection.
There is no pressure on you to do any of the above. I am just expressing my thoughts and feelings regarding this connection. I hope you will see that there is wisdom and sense in what I have said however.
Om Namo Narayanaya.
Hari Aum Tat Sat.
