Hari Aum.
For some reason, this evening I felt like sharing my thoughts with the group of twin souls on the planet (never felt drawn to this before but I feel guided to do so and therefore here I am).
(I will write in the form of a stream of consciousness, rather than a very structured message. So, here goes. I will say at the outset that I have more questions than answers, by the way)
As a group of spiritual seekers we know what we have been through. We know what others on this journey have been through. And, we know it has not been easy.
I am not going to outline our typical common experiences here. We all know what they are, and there are far better websites out there that explain these. I want to focus more on the present and the future, rather than what we have already been through.
We've all been walking this journey for some time now (from some years, to some decades; and in most cases, many lifetimes).
What are we going to do with this connection? Many of us are in broadly similar situations.
We feel a bond, an energetic bond with our twin. We are all in various different far-flung places on the planet, far away from each other and generally, at some physical distance from our twin.
Karmics abound in the picture-- spouses, children and other relatives of all shapes and sizes. They're everywhere, and they are just fantastic and wonderful, all of them. Only issue is they are mostly not twin souls and have no idea what we are going through. Not so easy handling them therefore.
Spiritual guides also abound on this journey. Some are real and some are not. Various words and phrases are bandied about, including but not limited to: spiritual growth, going inwards, unconditional love, healing, purging, karmas, chakras, kundalini, meditation, spiritual purpose, cleansing, ancestral bonds, mission, higher self, lower self, union, separation, ego, death, rebirth, starseeds, angels and more.
What next, my dear friends, my fellow twin souls?
What are we going to do now, after everything we have been through?
We have meditated till we are blue in face, we've healed and purged, and purged and healed. We are relatively adept at handling karmas (by holding the hand of the Divine). We are in touch with our spiritual guides (who seem to expect us to take some responsibility for this journey ourselves instead of asking for help constantly).
So, what, my dear twin soul friends, are we meant to do next?
Years ago, when I started on the path of mantra purascharana, I asked in my very first post, if anyone had any experiences to share for mutual learning.
I feel a similar way now about this journey. It is very mysterious. I have more questions than answers currently with regard to this.
Much has happened over the years, particularly in the past four.
The main questions I currently have are:
1. What does the universe specifically want from us twin souls? (I don't mean vague airy-fairy stuff like 'spiritual growth' etc as described above. I am talking about very specifically from each one of us, what is expected from us by the Divine? Why are we in the specific situation that we are in?)
2. Are we collectively bonkers? Is this a group hallucination? How can these experiences really have happened?
I am especially saying this on behalf of those of us of a more scientific temperament. We may be spiritual seekers, but we are also doctors, engineers and people from other very scientific backgrounds. We have undergone rigorous scientific training in our respective subjects and often at relatively prestigious educational institutions in various parts of the world (and these do not encourage much spiritual thinking, yet here we are!).
Do you therefore sometimes pinch yourself and wonder if you are dreaming? How can this stuff be happening for real? Even as spiritual seekers, knowing that spiritual laws transcend scientific ones, we still feel the need to sometimes shake our heads in disbelief at the things the universe has done in our lives.
We are often completely grounded in reality in all aspects of our lives, except the twin soul aspect which does not follow any ordinary rules.
Dreams, numbers, signs, synchronicities and other utterly baffling events take place regularly in our lives. The universe merrily continues to play this game with us while we look around bewildered and wondering what it wants from us.
Do you know what the universe wants from us? I do not want the usual clichéd nonsense (such as unconditional love, spiritual growth-- we all know that stuff and are working on it anyway). I want very specific answers.
What does God want with us, that He/She is playing this strange game? What is going on?
If you have any meaningful and helpful ideas and thoughts regarding this subject, please feel free to share your views here. Until then, I am going to say goodbye for now. I wish you spiritual progress (and maintenance of your sanity on this strange soul journey) in the meantime. :)
Om Namo Narayanaya.
Hari Aum Tat Sat.
