Hari Aum.
Now that the festive season is done, and all the external rejoicings and duties have been completed, what remains within for many twin souls is a void. The space where the twin soul fits-- in that space is a void.
Every moment, every hour, every day, every night--- this void remains. There is no escaping it.
No amount of activities, material or spiritual, can fill this void. It just is.
No amount of relationships, work, hobbies, prayers, mantras, tears, conversations, anything, can fill this void. It just exists.
It is a perpetual experience. An endless well. A black hole. It seems to have an unlimited capacity to drain one's thoughts, energies, joy, peace and everything.
Life lacks lustre without the twin. That is simply a fact.
No matter how wonderful everything appears, the lack of the twin in one's life, feels like something essential is missing.
It is like having a range of wonderful dishes on a table-- prepared with the best ingredients, the most exotic flavours and spices, but lacking the basic ingredient-- salt. Without a pinch of salt, many dishes that would otherwise taste perfect, taste bland and even repulsive.
This is the reality of life for twin souls. Without the twin, life is like a dish without salt. Salt may not sound particularly romantic or impressive, but it strangely is; it is essential, it is necessary, it is a vital flavour in life.
The twin soul is the salt in the dish of life (quite often they may also feel like an unpleasant bitter taste, and very rarely like a sweet one!).
The ego mind hates to admit this, it hurts to admit this, it feels weak, it feels dependent, it feels wretched.
But this is simply a fact of life. There is simply nothing that can be done about it.
Like there is nothing that can be done about gravity. It just exists.
I have observed, based on my meeting other people and online readings, that there are currently a number of twin souls out there who are married to perfectly nice people and who have their own families-- and it all looks just fantastic on the outside, and frankly it should be, except it is not fantastic on the inside at all. The universe just does not allow it. It is just appalling. What is to be done about this?
What does the universe want from us all I wonder, from the group of twin souls on this planet? What are we to do?
There are people who keep telling us that we need to 'go within'. I say to them, 'I have gone within, I have been going within for ages. I continue to go within, I tell you! Going within is all very well, but it is not solving my practical problem-- that the universe itself seems to be pushing me towards the twin. Whenever I look within, there is the twin! What am I to do here?!"
I do not want to approach the twin. I did it already. I feel, rightly or wrongly, that it is their turn. Their turn to manifest a little courage. It takes two to tango and I cannot dance this twin soul dance on my own.
God is not partial to either twin soul or anyone. Let there be equality-- of effort, of wanting to manifest this connection, of wanting a 3D union of some sort, whatever the universe ordains.
I will end this post with a link (which I will also add to my 'twin soul resources' page- please see below). This was recently shared by a friend who also seems to be on a twin soul journey.
I found the videos on this page very interesting and insightful and thought these may be helpful for anyone else on this journey (including my own twin soul if they are lurking on this blog-- if you are missing me, grow some, and get in touch instead of hiding in the background-- I do not bite. And, also, I do ask the Divine Mother to give you some protection-- for some reason, I feel you need it. You and I both know that you particularly have been a major idiot (I have also been an idiot but less than you), but as you and I are part of some common 'soul circuit', I do pray for you just as I pray for myself. I feel this is needed for my own peace and sanity).
Om Sri Durgayai Namah.
Om Namo Narayanaya.
Hari Aum Tat Sat.
P.S. There is much debate among married twin souls as to whether or not they are supposed to end up in physical 3D union with their twin. Some say yes, and some say no. I would politely suggest that this be left to the Divine.
Every situation, every set of karmas and life purposes is unique. It is not mandatory to 'leave everything' for the twin, nor is it mandatory not to leave everything for them.
From what I gather, the only mandatory aspect is to be prepared to do the will of the Divine, and this will become clear at every step on the journey - we will be shown what we need to do now and perhaps in the relatively near future (a bit like a torch light shows us the way just ahead but not far into the darkness/the currently unseen distant future).
Hari Aum Tat Sat
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