Twin flamery: the predictable rollercoaster

 Hari Aum.

I would like to write an update on the twin flame vibe for any twin souls out there who are reading this. I would like to begin by stating that this is of course a very fascinating and valuable connection (and it is not my intention to upset anyone by writing this, least of all, my own dear twin if they are here. :)

But, really, I feel compelled today, to share the current twin flame vibe that I and some other so-called 'twin flames' (particularly the female polarities) seem to be feeling (based on discussions I have had and what I have read). 

Really, this connection is beginning to feel just a little bit dull (and repetitive). Let me explain what I mean using an example.

I recently went to a theme park with my daughter. It's one we had been to before-- and predictably, it had quite a few rollercoasters (which I admit, I am not a massive fan of-- they make me nauseous. I don't mind some of the gentler rides but being thrown about at high speed is not really my idea of fun. I don't care if it makes me sound boring, it is simply the truth).

The twin soul journey, once the initial shock passes, is like a predictable rollercoaster. Up and down you go (literally feeling nauseous on occasion- if it really gets to one, even vomiting and other maladies are  possible-- yes, not attractive at all!).

Just as getting on a rollercoaster may be fun or shocking or interesting the first few times, but can become very dull indeed if one has to do it every single day-- so, also my dear friends, is the case with the twin soul rollercoaster (because many would agree that a rollercoaster is a good description for this journey-- up and down one goes, being flung about in various directions by the universe!).

It has been around four years, I would say, since the twin souls on this planet underwent a fresh stage of awakening (which felt rather alarming for many). All the drama of the past few years is now settling, and those involved seem to have an idea of what this connection is.

And, although it has been quite fascinating so far, it is getting a little bit repetitive and dull. I don't mean that anyone's twin soul is boring at all (of course not!), I mean the connection itself is getting predictable and dull. And, it is nobody's fault (except maybe the Universe's for designing it this way in the first place)!

It really is getting to be a case of 'same old, same old' for most people on this journey. The same old predictable drama that comprises various elements or 'energies' such as:

The 'miss them' energy. 

The 'this is toxic' energy. 

The 'love them- hate loving them' energy!

The 'what is hell is going on' (or the 'this is so confusing') energy

The 'dunno what the universe wants/let it decide’ (resigned) energy

The 'what's with all the karmics' (more confusion!) energy

The 'must get on with spiritual life' (heroic!) energy

The 'it's all very unpredictable' (uneasy) energy

The 'get out of my head now' (fed-up!) energy 

The 'here we go again, running and chasing' (exhausted!) energy

I kid you not, my dear friends, having a twin soul is interesting at first, but then descends into a very predictable experience. One significant difficulty, is the fact that stuff happens over a very, very tediously long cycle of time.

One meets them, and then separates....and then 'encounters' them (in some way or the other) and then again separates.....communication is virtually non-existent or very limited (that is, in the waking state or 3D; in the astral realm/dream state, there seems to be more contact…).  

It's like reading a series of books where the author publishes a new volume every five or ten years—how dull is that! Anyone would be forgiven for losing all patience with it. The universe seems to have completed a chapter in the past four years and we have no guaranteed certainty as to where we are all going next--that is my current update!

Meanwhile, those who are apparently wise, and claim to understand this weird journey, tell us that it is all about spiritual life and perseverance. 

On that note, may I suggest that something useful come out of this experience. Since the world is getting madder by the minute, with nations going to war (and others jumping into the fray), let us utilise the twin soul energy to create something positive.

I am no expert at numerology (been meaning to study this for a while, will try and get around to this at some stage this year), but people say that 'angel numbers' have significance. 

And, it is the experience of various so-called twin souls, including myself, that these (e.g. 11:11, 22:22, 44:44, 23:23 etc) do have some meaning (oddly, I realise that every home I have lived in in the past has been numbered either 22, or 44, or 84 or some combination of these. Furthermore, I realise that, for years, I was repeating 11 malas of mantra a day, which would mean a purascharana would take around 22 months if it all went to plan. I have also dreamt of 22:22 and 11:11 on a few occasions-- it is really all very peculiar).

Anyway, on a very practical note, how about starting a 22:22 (10:22 pm) or 11:11 am/pm meditation for world peace? i.e. meditate intensely for 2 minutes at 22:22 (Sivananda and other Gurus say that even brief intense thoughts of God can bring peace to our planet)? Or for 11 minutes at 11:11 pm, or something similar?

I feel this would be a very good plan for all twin souls at the very least, and it would be wonderful if other people could join in-- after all, we are all experiencing the chaos of this planet, so why not work together to try and bring some peace? Something good surely has to come out of this rollercoaster journey-- and this might as well be a part of it!

On that note, I am going to do a mini-meditation and sleep! See you again soon. Please keep chanting for world peace--this is our duty according to all our Gurus.

Om Namo Narayanaya. Om Namo Narayanaya. Om Namo Narayanaya.

Hari Aum Tat Sat.

Shyamasundara: the darkness of Lord Krishna

 Hari Aum.

Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya. Om Shyamasundaraya Namah.

Lord Krishna is described as the Lord who is dark in colour, dark as the monsoon clouds. He is quite literally described as the embodiment of male beauty-- 'tall, dark and handsome'. This is the meaning of His name 'Shyamasundara'. He is called by various terms of endearment-- the ultimate charmer, the flute-player of Vrindavan, the irresistible One. The best friend, the true Lover, the all in all. So say the Gurus, so say the yogis.

But, as we weary spiritual seekers, trudge upon the spiritual path, repeating His holy names, what is our experience? Before we reach the happily enlightened stage that our Gurus attained, while we are caught up in the mire of samsara (worldly existence), what is our actual experience of this handsome Lord, this so-called charming One? 

Unfortunately, our experience of Him (in the form of this world that He has created) is not always very savoury! The tall, dark and handsome One can appear to have a very dark side indeed-- one that we may actually tremble to see!

On that note, it seems that every few weeks this year, the world holds its breath as another dangerous war breaks out somewhere on the planet (and various world leaders mutter the word 'nuclear' to threaten each other with little care as to the consequences). Yes, this is the world that the good Lord has created, that Krishna has created-- and a wonderful Creation it is, no doubt (despite the horrific side, there is also great beauty-- though we may struggle to see it at times!)

As He Himself says in the Gita, He moves us all as though we were puppets in a play. And, He Himself is the face of Death. We should not be surprised, therefore, at any of today's events on our planet. It is all quite natural. 

Our ancient Puranas highlight the strange and whimsical nature of Shyamasundara or Lord Krishna. On the one hand, He saves Ajamila and Pingala, whose actions could be described as less than entirely dharmic-- they sought refuge in Him and were protected. On the other, He creates a terrible Lila of destruction where the children of His own beloved friends and relatives, the Pandavas, are massacred along with countless other people, both noble and ignoble. 

While praising Him, Queen Kunti, mother of the Pandavas, asks Him to grant Her suffering so that she may ever remember Him (as the mind is said to remember God more intensely in suffering than in joy). And we know that Krishna certainly granted her wish (based on the events that took place in the Mahabharata)! (We may not all share Kunti's prayer but He generously provides us a dose of suffering anyway!). 

Equally, while cursing Him, Queen Gandhari, mother of the Kauravas (all of whom had died in the Mahabharata war) declares that, as the Creator of the world, and orchestrator of this divine Lila, His earthly clan (the Yadavas) too should perish. Krishna smilingly grants her wish, saying that it was already ordained in accordance with His will.

He is alike, indeed, to friend and foe-- as He says Himself, there is none to whom He is partial. He favours none, He rejects none. 

However, He always upholds dharma (righteousness/goodness) and the law of karma (the law that says we will reap what we sow). Those who walk the path of dharma are protected by it, and those who do not, fall foul of the law of karma-- that most unforgiving and inexorable of laws.

In His destructive aspect, Krishna is no less terrible than Mother Kali (interestingly, They both share the same beeja mantra 'Klim' suggesting that They are truly One in essence). The only difference is that Krishna looks charming, while Kali looks fearsome. 

The childhood Lilas of Krishna may be portrayed as sweet and adorable (filled with music, dancing, play and games), but when He reveals His true divine form to Arjuna (in the Gita), as the Almighty, He is both wonderful and terrifying in equal measure (to the extent that Arjuna is filled with fear and begs to see His usual human form).

As devotees, we play with our Krishna, we worship Him, we talk with Him, we walk with Him, we embrace Him in our lives in so many ways. But truly, we know Him not. We do not know His consciousness, His divine will and His plans for us. 

So He is dark in so many ways-- both in His appearance and in His deeds, but most of all, in the form of the future which lies hidden from our view. We know not what tomorrow will bring; it is shrouded in mystery. And we know, that His Lilas can be brutal to both devotee and non-devotee alike-- He impartially gives everyone the results of their own karmas. 

Ultimately, He sits upon the throne of judgement, and sees us as we really are-- we cannot hide anything from Him. And Yama (also known as 'Dharma') is His right-hand man (His own manifestation, in fact)-- the one who keeps a score, a count of our deeds, both good and bad, so that we may be given our just desserts in accordance with the law of karma.

And so, as we walk through the darkness of this strange world that He has created, this world that is increasingly filled with violence and madness, we have little choice but to hold on tightly to the hand of this dark Lord, this One who hides His face, who inspires both love and fear within us. 

We have little choice because He is the only certainty here-- He alone exists, His will alone prevails over all our little wills, and His justice will ultimately prevail over all of the chaos and madness that we generate. 

As the fighting in the Middle East intensifies at the present time, let us do the only thing that we can possibly do, namely, pray. Let us pray to Krishna (or whichever form of God we are drawn to as they are all ultimately One according to the Gurus), whose Lilas are both charming and terrifying, that our minds and hearts may be filled with light instead of darkness. 

As the ancient Upanishadic prayer goes:

"Asato ma, Sat gamaya,

Tamaso ma, Jyotir gamaya,

Mrityor ma, Amritam gamaya".

Meaning:

"Lead me from untruth to Truth, 

from darkness to light, and,

from death to Immortality".

Om Namo Narayanaya.

P.S. Please can we all continue to recite the ashtakshara or any mantra or prayer of our liking for 5-10 minutes at least every day for world peace. Let us pray to Krishna and Kali that all wars may end and that a state of relative peace may be created on our planet as soon as possible.