Letter to my twin—updated

 Hari Aum

Letter to my twin:

If you are on this blog now, I would like to say that we need to talk.

This separation /silence from you is affecting my health negatively. I cannot believe that you are happy this way either.

Can we please discuss and figure out this strange journey together? 

Can we please just accept that this is not a normal connection—and recognise that we owe it to ourselves and each other to talk about it?

Please. I have a migraine and I feel it is due to this unhealed bond with you. If you are truly my twin, and care even slightly about my existence, then please take this seriously.

Can we please drop the negative feelings (such as any guilt, blame, shame etc) and just have a mature conversation?

Really KB, after eighteen years since we’ve met, surely we can do this? I need you to reach out this time— please respect my wishes at least once.

Om Namo Narayanaya 

Hari Aum Tat Sat 

Update: July 23

I really appreciate the social media mirroring but, at this stage, it does feel insufficient. I would really like to hear the **truth**—specifically, I would like you to state that you feel this connection (and that I am not imagining this—it is clear that I am not but, as it is an unusual bond, I really need to hear you say you feel it). 

One sentence— “I feel this connection and I know it is a twin soul one”— will suffice (no further discussion is required if you prefer it that way). Is this really too much to ask?

I notice that twin souls quite often stand aside without interfering in each other’s karmic cycles—they respect the karmic connections. 

Is it then so much to ask for the karmics to stand aside (or for twin souls to place them aside) for just a moment, just long enough for this connection to be recognised for what it is (especially as there is no threat from the twin soul bond to the karmic connections in the majority of cases; we do not need to have any regular contact if you do not wish. I need to hear you feel this bond though for my own sanity). 

Tell me what I need to do to get you to talk to me about this? I am genuinely open to anything (within reason!).

I am travelling tomorrow {wish we had spoken this evening —nearly messaged you again during the ‘green dotting session’ just now (yes that is what I call it) but felt you do not want to talk so held back}. Not easy dealing with you honestly (you are a very difficult person, I’m sorry to say! 18.5 years!!).

Hari Aum Tat Sat